It occurs to me, about Hillary Clinton's fabled welling up of tears, her famous hushed and halting and speech, it was not purely earnest nor contrived. It was both. If you want to know what was going through her mind then, and you know she won't be the one to tell you, read on. She had a pang of pathos, of feeling sorry for herself, not without reason mind you. But once she felt that pang she let it linger within her, and thought, This is great. I'm going to use this. And she did, brilliantly. It was real. But make no mistake, she was always in control.